Song of the moment: No Such Thing by John Mayer

Holy crap, I haven't updated this thing in over a month. So much shit has happened [mainly good, I can't really think of anything right now that's bad except for your random arguments with family and stuff]. It would probably take me all day just talking about all the random stuff that has happened in these last couple of weeks, but then all my of my hard work would go in vain since I don't think anyone reads this thing anymore. When I was updating this blogger [almost] everyday, my daly hits went all the way up to 150... which is pretty good since I don't really talk to my online friends much anymore, and i basically stopped posting on message boards back then.

Hmm... yeah... I don't know why I'm still typing right now, I guess I just need something to do to pass the time until i have to go to work. I still write on my private journal at home [with an actual journal and an actual pen]. My real journal hold my deepest thoughts about my life and just living in general, and most of the stuff I normally wouldn't talk about just oozes into this public journal from my journal at home. Writing and talking about your problems [even if you're alone and you're just randomly pondering] is my prescription for a healthy lifestyle. People keep in so much of their thoughts because of the fear that they might get laughed at, or they just don't know how to voice in their opinions so all of it is compressed into their subconscious thought and it all comes out when you finally get down to just writing whatever is in your mind. It's quite theraputic. I know I might not make sense at times when I write, but that's because I barely even think about thinking about what I'm writing because I'm just typing so fast and it's really quite cool just reading over what comes out. I swear to you, I can just close my eyes and let my fingers and subconsious mind do the talking for me and I could probably come up with a good story in under 10 minutes.

I talked to one of my managers at Twissleman's today for I think a good hour.. more or less. We had a good intellectual talk about religion, philosophy, college, and music. It was a refreshing break from talking to other people about random, childish stuff. I learned a few things today, and some of the stuff he was saying about buddhism and the philosophy of religion really makes me want to take some kind of philosophy class even more. I wanted to take Ethics at cabrillo, but then that class is scheduled at the same time as my Italian class. I guess I have to wait until next year to take it, since I'm most likely going to take another math class at cabrillo next summer again. I want to get as high in math as I can, even though I am considering on becoming a lawyer more instead of an astrophysicist. I still need to take Astronomy, though to make up my mind thoroughly.

I really want to move to New York. Peter told me I should really strive to get into Harvard Law, but shoot.... Harvard in general just seems so exclusive. If I could do anything I want with no boundaries or undefeatable obstacles, I would go to Harvard Law and get my degree and then move to New York and live the lifestyle of being a New York lawyer and develop a notorious reputation of winning all my cases and then eventually be assasinated by some crazy ass bitter intern. That would be so fucking cool.

I don't even know if I'm making sense right now because aside from my random pondering, I've been talking to a few people that I haven't spoken to online and it's kind of wierd having to transition from conversation to conversation and then back to my blogger. I think I accidentally started talking about the wrong things to the wrong people and I've been mixing up my conversations that my friends are starting to think i'm some kind of schizophrenic freak, in which I actually am... at times. I guess.

I guess I'll stop here and focus on my other conversations. It's fun blogging, because the only person you're having a conversation with is yourself and either way.

okay i've been gone for like 5 minutes and i totally forgot what i was talking about so yeah. Laytah!